Always find it so weird how people can make you feel about yourself. When I lie in bed in the early hours of the morning, no make up, hair a mess, I think I look absolutely fine. Give or take a few skin blemishes and the fact I’ve weight to lose, I don’t see much else wrong with me. But as soon as I wake up and step out the door, I am constantly told I’m not good looking in the slightest, and made to feel like I’m the fattest ugliest and worst person alive. It’s hard when you build up the confidence in yourself to have everyone else in the world knock it down but I guess that’s how life is. Merrrrrrp.

It’s upsetting that I know you wouldn’t speak to me even if we were the last two people on earth.